Encouragement....

I'll ask you to do your own research, there's a lot to cover, but if you word search "seal of God" in the Bible, you will find scripture after scripture about how God knows them that are His, like 2 Timothy 2:19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, And having this seal, the Lord knoweth them that are his.  And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity.

Revelation 6:9

And when he had opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of them that were slain for the word of God, and for the testimony which they held: And they cried with a loud voice, saying, How long, O Lord, holy and true, dost thou not judge and avenge our blood on them that dwell on the earth?

 

Revelation 7:2,3

And I saw another angel ascending from the east, having the seal of the living God: and he cried with a loud voice to the four angels, to whom it was given to hurt the earth and the sea, Saying, Hurt not the earth, neither the sea, nor the trees, till we have sealed the servants of our God in their foreheads.

 

Revelation 9:1-4

And the fifth angel sounded,...vs 3 And there came out of the smoke locusts upon the earth: and unto them was given power, as the scorpions of the earth have power. vs 4 And it was commanded them that they should not hurt the grass of the earth, neither any green thing, neither any tree; but only those men which have not the seal of God in their foreheads....

 

Herein is our encouragement, that when we accept Christ as our Savior, repenting of our sins, with His forgiveness, and follow Him unto the end (why WOULDN'T we follow Him unto the end; is there anything BETTER??), we have the seal of God and are His forever.

 

The apostles, book of Acts Christians, Christians throughout all of time, have been tormented, killed, tortured,..HOWEVER, we will all die SOME day, so whatever we do go through, if we have the seal of God IN our foreheads, we cry out to Him, we sing songs of thanksgiving unto Him, we TRUST in Him,....

 

Zechariah 4:6

...Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the Lord of hosts.

 

I wanted to learn about all of the provisions God provided for the Isrealites after they left Egypt.  I googled Provision from God in the Wilderness, up it popped, so I clicked on that and in learnthebible.org there was everything I needed to know, including definitions of words, and scripture searches.  Extremely helpful to me. Do your own research so that you will be strong in the Word for yourself. 

 

John 15:4-7

Abide in me, and I in you.  As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.  I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.  If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned.  If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.

 

I know from my own experience, when I don't remain in the word daily, or get side tracked by doing other things on a regular basis, don't hear the word, not pray for long periods of time, I feel like I wither, shrivel up, have nothing that comes to my aid when I need it, spiritually speaking, as well.  We can't depend on other people to pull us through all of our troubles, or help us every time we have a need; but we CAN count on the Lord to provide.  One day I'll tell y'all about how the Lord provided for me/us on many occasions, when He was the only one that knew about the need.  Fascinating!  

 

 

 

 

 

Valuable lesson learned...

Many years ago, when our middle child was young, around the third grade, we were living in a small town just outside of Lake Jackson, TX.   At that time, my youngest brother was serving in the military and living in beautiful Hawaii.  When he came back to visit us he'd brought her a birthday gift, which happened to be a Smurf doll, the blue, white, black stuffed toys.  She was some excited and would later place it right there on the top of her bed against her pillows. 

Oh dear. 

I wouldn't even allow our kids to watch the Smurf cartoons on TV because they were actuially witches and warlocks and performed all sorts of sorcery.  They also weren't permitted to play certain video games when they came out if they involved demons and magic spells and powers (I had quite a few disagreements with others regarding my point of view on these issues, I can tell you).  I knew all of this would "open doors" to a demonic realm that I didn't want in our home.  Unfortunatley, not all of my relatives and in-laws felt the same way, so there were times that would slip in, you know, letting them watch certain cute little Disney shows and cartoons, or anything else I felt not good for our kids, while mean ole mom wasn't around. 

So ~ because I loved my brother and didn't want to offend him by not accepting the Smurf doll, add to that upsetting my daughter, I let him give her the stuffed toy.  Oh yes, the kids often got upset with me for not letting them watch what every other friend and kid in the neighborhood and world were allowed to watch, but they obeyed me at home . I would always explain to them why it wasn't good for them.  (Halloween is another story in itself, and I haven't had my way on this on many occasions, but our oldest daughter still doesn't believe in doing Halloween with her family.)

Mind you, we were regular church goers; I was deeply involved in Women's Aglow, the Women's Ministry at our spirit-filled church, and weekly bible studies...I went against what I knew best, just didn't want to hurt my brother's well meaning intentions:  I knew better, I KNEW better!

So here we go, this is what happened...

For the next week, our young daughter would wake up during the night crying for no apparent reason, almost like she was being tormented, you know, unappeased.  I already knew how to check our girls for pinworms, so maybe that's what it was.  I'd check her, nope no worms...Next night, all over again, like clock work.  I began to wonder if it had something to do with a spiritual matter, i.e., the new toy, and I truly felt the Lord was dealing with me to handle it...Well, I didn't handle it like I should, like if it's a spiritual matter, pray about it and get rid of the doll.  I'd learned about spiritual warfare, binding & rebuking the devil in areas he didn't belong, but I was still basically new at it.  Either I was in denial or leary, or chicken, or whatever, but I tried to ignore it, like maybe it'd resolve itself. REALLY??! 

After about a week of this waking up and crying during the night, which included breaking up OUR sleep (and not dealing with the obvious), while the kids and hubby were away at school and work, I decided to lie down on my bed and take a nap.  We had a four bedroom house so each of our kids had their own room.  As I'm lieing there, I could see her room by turning my head to the left and look down at the end of the short hallway.  The head of our bed was against the wall close to our door, with a side table on either side of the bed.  The foot of her bed faced towards her doorway. Got it? 

During this nap, I was "asleep" but it was like I wasn't.  Everything looked exactly as though I was awake.  Something caught my attention so I looked towards her room and this Star Wars looking little imp, roundish-like dark brown/black with two big eyes and long skinny arms that touched the floor.  It comes meandering, sort of walloping slowly down the hallway, looking directly at my eyes the whole time.  When it entered our bedroom, it hopped onto the edge of my bed where I'm lieing, at my knees, and stares at me, like trying to put fear into me.  I could sense it, this aim to put fear into me, with an impish type of "grin"...

I pointed at it, WITHOUT ANY FEAR, and said, "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE, IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!" It gave me a pause, like it didn't think I meant it, so I repeated it, swinging my arm & pointing to the hallway at the same time, "GET OUT OF HERE, IN THE NAME OF JESUS!"  It hopped down off my bed next to the bedside table, no longer grinning & hesitated, then slowly wobbled down the hallway stopping to turn around as if thinking, "eh, is she really serious", so again I exclaim those same words.  It went around the corner of the hallway never to be seen again.  I got up, and went straight to her room took that doll, brought it out to the side of our house throwing it into an aluminum garbage can and burned it, rebuking and binding any evil spirits over it and asked the Lord to forgive me for allowing this to even happen to our family.

That very night, she slept ALL NIGHT and has ever since, that I know of.  Now, tell me the Lord doesn't hear us!  It was like the Lord was saying, "Well, if she's not going to deal with it while she's awake, she will deal with it in her sleep, but she WILL deal with it."  *smile* 

Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do
shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go
unto my Father. John 14:12

Thou answeredst them, O Lord our God: thou wast a God that forgavest them, though thou tookest vengeance of their inventions.  Psalm 99:8

 

Just consider these things...what if it's all true?

Sometimes I wake up odd hours of the night, can't go back to sleep; I'll pray, or read the Word...the main issues that are burdensome to me are for those I love regarding future events. I know we're not to concern ourselves with "tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. And why worry about what we will wear, what we will eat, or the clothes we need, because the Lord knows we have need of all these things, but seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added unto you. (Matthew 6)  But I also know that we're to intercede and pray for others because that's what we're called to do. [I Thess 5:17 Pray without ceasing., 2 Tim 1:3 I thank God, whom I serve from my forefathers with pure conscience, that without ceasing I have remembrance of thee in my prayers night and day.], just a few scriptures about praying...

 

  Deeper things, regarding what's going to happen in our future world... I'll think to myself, "who can I even TALK to concerning these things? Not everyone cares about all that, or believes they're possible, at least not anyone in my circle of family and friends, that I know of. (when I bring up the future issues, I'm generally told, "You need to quit reading and watching all those things about black helicopters, martial law,...why do you think about all of that?? And even if things are gonna get that bad, what can we do about it anyway??" I'm pretty sure some of them, HIGHLY likely, think I'm off the wall for considering things that are weird/legends/hybrid...just like I used to think about people that talked about those things...ridiculous, right?

 

Here's me being transparent to whosoever has been reading my blog, and at the risk of sounding ludicrous to them that know me.  Mind you, I NEVER thought I'd lean towards the possibility of these things MAYBE being actually true.  I always thought people that believed in UFO'S and Sasquatch, etc., were all like off their rocker...   

 

But what if it turns out to be possible, worse yet, even true?  What if the tribulation period, that is right before the end times, is actually what the Freemasons & the Illumanati and all of those wealthy so called secret societies are striving to come to pass, because they don't want Christians around, or anyone that bucks them, all of us "insignificants", and they want to control the world, complete world domination?

 

Yes, Satan is in charge of all this, and none of it is new under the sun. 

 

My concern, when I wake in the night, is a burden for my loved ones (including me and my husband) to have the patience and faith and boldness to trust in the Lord Jesus Christ and to be overcomers during those majorly trying times, to say the least!  That my loved ones, friends, others, will be so strong in the Lord that they will NEVER deny Christ, no matter WHAT they threaten them with; be it the threat or possibility of destroying one of their loved ones if they don't deny Christ or take the chip or bow down to worship their so called "messiah"...  We're promised the glory of the kingdom of God in Heaven, to behold the One true God, our creator, our Father, all because of the Lord Jesus Christ.  

 

 

According to the Bible, the tribulation is supposed to be worse than ANYTHING that has ever happened since the beginning of time.  Again, I say, how could ANYTHING be worse than the tortures that have occurred thus far....

 

I present this (and I know there are thousands that have considered all of these things, as well)...what if getting the "chip" is not just about buying and selling...what if it's all about using the technology to control people's will, causing them to do things THEY want us to do, the higher powers in this horrific plan...and what if scientists have been creating atrocities, and working with demons, since they've discovered the science and physics of DNA strands, and conjoining OTHER DNA from other beings, creatures, animals, (impossible?? I believe not and so do hundreds of other people), and these atrocities, demonic entities, will be walking VISIBLY in the world, creating horrific havoc to anyone and everyone...

 

What if the UFO's are true, thousands have testified to seeing them...what if they are either demons or the "governments" have been working all of this out, to deceive all of us, and that there is a certain 'church' that has deceived many and will totally welcome these beings and even Nephilim (giants from the Bible that were fallen angels going with human women), and these giants will again be welcomed and somewhere the antichrist spirits.....

 

When they rebuild the Temple in Jerusalem, and they bring out the actual Ark of the Covenant that Ron Wyatt and his crew discovered many years ago, (google Wyatt Museum Discoveries, be sure it is the official website)...Lab results have shown that on the Ark of the Covenant, there is actual dried blood that has proven to be the chromosomes of a human mother and no natural father...hence, just as the Bible proclaims, Mary was immaculately impregnated...And when they sacrifice an animal, or a red heifer, or what EVER they plan to pour on top of Jesus's blood on the Ark...What do YOU think will happen....

 

The two witnesses to come will be awesome!  I am so looking forward to the two witnesses of the book of Revelations...

 

 

 

Revelations 12:11, we will overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.  There are testimonies of people that "see these weird things" such as what you read in Skinwalker Ranch and other podcasts,...when they would pray, "it/they" leave them alone, they are safe. We must always remember that the Blood of Jesus, the Name of Jesus, is more powerful than anything in the world, by the power of the Holy Spirit.

 

1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

  

Have you heard about the military camps that are being built and located throughout the USA, empty now, but what are they preparing for?? And probably throughout the world?? Underground bunkers and tunnels in the mountains for example by the wealthy (what atrocities are they foreseeing, that they believe is coming??)  Haven't you heard about the Walmart buildings that are being abandoned, claiming sewer or water problems, turning into prison looking camps??  This one was new to me, also. [ Youtube, books, podcasts,...]

 

Yes, people have been proclaiming the end times for centuries, 'nothings happened yet'.  What if it IS just around the corner?  Like two years away, five years away, even twenty years away??  Isn't that closer than centuries ago??

 

 I do believe in the plausibility of DNA atrocities being performed in private sectors by scientists and all of the strange testimonies of thousands, upon thousands of stories as in Missing 411, and the Skinwalker Ranch, [books], on and on.  You really think all those thousands of people are making everything up? Try listening to some of them, if you haven't already.  The details in their stories are almost impossible to ignore.

 

 

Many years ago, a good friend of mine smirked and told me, "You know, you don't have to believe everything you read and hear."  True that and I don't believe in everything I read and hear.  That's why I pray continuously, "Lord, don't let me be deceived, I don't want to be deceived."

 

There is someone I can talk to for sure, and that's You, Lord.  You know EXACTLY what I need to rest my soul about all of this. I get my Bible and sure enough, the scriptures I need to reassure me that He's got all of this under control and that none of this has caught HIM by surprise, is right there....Then I have peace, reassurance. I continue to pray for all of us...

 

There IS something we can do about it, so far it's to pray and do spiritual warfare for our loved ones.

 

Peace about the future. He'll either feed us with manna like He fed the Hebrews in the desert, with water from a rock, birds falling from the sky,...I don't know how He will take care of us.  But I'm gonna buy a Berkey water filter container just in case!

 

Before a patient has a medical procedure performed, the nurse and or doctor presents him/her with a piece of paper to sign, agreeing to have it done.  The nurse/doctor must first inform/warn them of all of the side-effects or maybe even death that could possibly occur from this procedure...Someone told me she wished her doctor wouldn't tell her of all the things that could happen, just give her the paper without all of that and she'll just sign it....Then there are others that will say, I wish the doctor/nurse had told me what could happen or what they thought might happen...

 

That's what I'm doing now...I'm telling you what might/could/may happen...And if it doesn't, and we all come out of this unscathed, great...But what of the thousands of tortured/imprisoned Christians all over the world...What about them??  Do we really think that we as Christians we will not have to go through such events because we live in America, land of the free?

 

I've always been so grateful to have been born an American, the freedoms we have been so blessed with living in this country.  Will/could it ever change?  Will there be wars from other nations right here on our very soil?  Will it be soon? Will we wake up during the night thinking it's lightning and thunder when it suddenly turns out to be bombs and warfare?  Wasn't Hiroshima surprised when the atom bomb fell? Wasn't Pearl Harbor caught by surprise? Would events have turned out differently had they been forewarned??  Will we get a knock on our door one day or night, demanding we go with uniformed personnel, due to martial law, even tho we're innocent of wrong doing? That the only thing we're guilty of is not taking  the chip because Revelations warning us not to take the mark of the beast, or will they be taking us because we won't deny Christ?

 

 

What if our loved ones are in another town/state/country if sudden war occurs on our land, and we can't get ahold of them for one reason or another, and we're left to only pray they're alright like so many other warn torn countries have been/are going through?  Will we be strong enough in our faith and trust in the Lord to leave them in His hands at such crucial times?

 

You may even be saying to yourself, "If you're trying to scare me, cause panic in me, or make me worry, you're doing a pretty good job!"  I don't want any of that for any of us. I feel so impressed to share all of these possibilities so that we won't be caught unawares. Like I say, if it all turns out to be hogwash, great.  But if what the thousands of people around the world are testifying turns out to be true, wouldn't you have wanted to know ahead of time, so that you could be prepared?

 

I've also heard that so many of the movies being put out in cinemas today actually have truths to them...Almost like they're either bragging about everything, or "speaking to others in code" about how far things have progressed.  Like zombies, werewolves, mermaids, vampires (people LOVE the Twilight series!), witches, sorcerers, super powers...the list goes on and on.  Blatantly exposing their agenda right before our eyes...The football half-time performance programs with Illuminati/Freemason illustrations right there, and most of us aren't even aware of what's going on; I didn't- until I watched youtube videos explaining hidden meanings, I had no clue. 

 

If the Lord didn't want to warn us about future things to come, then why did He go through all the trouble of revealing things to Daniel in visions and dreams....and John in Revelations??... and other prophets in the Bible?  Was God trying to scare us or was He wanting to prepare us?  To prepare us, of course.  Right??

 

Rev 18:23 ...for by thy sorceries were all nations deceived. [talking about that great city Babylon]

 

The church of Christ (those that are led by the Spirit of God, saved from sin, living by grace,...) will be without spot or wrinkle, the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. Rev 21 

 

If we do end up in prison camps because of our faith, I pray we will have continuous praise and worship, and we will encourage one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, moving in the gifts and fruit of the Spirit right there for all the world to see!!  People getting saved, guards & military getting saved,.. a glorious time for the church!  Just as the Apostles did when they were imprisoned for speaking out about their faith, and proclaiming the gospel of Christ, leading others to salvation. 

 

And we all say, Come quickly, Lord Jesus!

 

 

 

Isn't it obvious?!

 

 

As you can see under the labels on the right hand side of the blog, I've watched tv shows and movies from all over the world through the years.  I enjoy foreign film the most because I'm just really fed up with most American entertainment.  Something very disturbing; the Lord's name is used as a curse word, and/or SOMETHING derogatory about the church, the gospel, Jesus, in every one of them.  In a negative way.  Someone almost always asks the question, do you believe there's anything after we die? (no, nothing) Do you think there's a God? I would venture to say the majority of the time, always negatively.  Not ANY other religion. [I have a relationship with Jesus, not a religion.  If it ever becomes one to me, Lord please correct me!]

 

In order to desensitize, disbelieve, doubt, Jesus,..The ruler of this world wants to get rid of anything pertaining to the gospel of Christ, the Ten Commandments, sin/repentence of sin...

 

These are the end times, why do you THINK this is happening all these years up till now?? 

 



Delving into the Word for myself...

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Hearing and seeing so many things, so many 'voices' from one direction or another...I have to look into the Word of God and ask Him, "is this true; is this possible; what do You say about this?"

So I get out the Bible, my journal, my pen for note taking, dictionary, Study Tools on iphone or books,...and I talk to the Lord, I find scriptures that are meaningful to me about what I'm wanting to know, and I know that He guides me by the Holy Spirit that lives within me, that He promised the disciples He would send after He went to be on the right hand of the Father. I've been walking with the Lord for a long time, and I have felt Him guide me and speak to me, on my inside, many, many times, and has answered many a prayer.  HIS way, in a way that I KNOW it was Him that spoke to me about whatever it is.

When there was any type of trial in my life, be it our kids, my marriage, my relationships, my health, ANYTHING that I was going through, I always ended up falling back into prayer and the Bible. I say 'ended up' because I didn't always do the right thing, but when I would go to the Lord first, it was always a good thing, and He'd show me through the scriptures what to do.  Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

 

The baptism of the Holy Spirit

Mark 16:17

Acts 2:4

Mark 1:8

John 1:33

John 14:26

John 20:22

Acts 1:5

Acts 2:4    And they were ALL filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

 

So much more of this in the Word, never does it say that the gifts STOPPED in the book of Acts, or that it was just for the Apostles.  It said ALL were filled. I Corinthians 14 speaks about the gifts; actually, do your own research into the gifts of the Holy Spirit.  Ask the Lord to show you what the Word says about everything. 

Lately, I've been hearing so many opinions about what this one believes, that one says,...There are many voices coming from every direction.  I pray, "Lord, I don't want to be deceived."  When I hear something that doesn't sound "right" but I can't put my finger as to why, I go to the Word and I search it out. When I'm looking into the Bible for TRUTHS, I'm at peace.  But whenever I hear something  that just seems "off", it's like a check inside of me says, "No, that's not sound, something just doesn't seem right."  It doesn't matter if it's a preacher, a friend, a relative, or even my own self, if I'm uncomfortable, I find out why. 

If someone is talking to me, for example, and I don't feel right about what they're saying, the best thing for me to do is say "Lord, help me with this, what to say or not say, should I keep quiet at this time...."  Then I go and read the Word and pray about it.  Sometimes I just have to wait until He opens a door to bring something important up, at the right time, .  (1 Peter 3:15)

That's where the Holy Spirit comes in, as well.  Teaching me all things, truths, a bit at a time: line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little, there a little.  (Isaiah 28:10, 13)
 

Why am I even talking about this. The full gospel, not just bits and pieces. Healings are for today, whether every single person sees it or not, there are some that have seen many healings for themselves and others.  Tongues, gifts of the Holy spirit, like prophecy, word of knowledge, word of wisdom...

 

How do you know if it's from God. Well, Matt. 6:27 Or who is there among you, who, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone.

 

Baptism in water

 

Why are many of the churches of today not talking about repentence of sin, baptism in the Holy Spirit, baptism in water? What's changed?  A subtle process, right? Like throwing the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak.

'Nuff for now...

 

 

Transparency...

I've been praying, "Lord, I don't want to be deceived, I want to discern what's true."

I knew the Lord was showing me I was spending way too much time on my ipad watching movies, tv shows, facebook,....I began listening to podcasts, youtube and the Word and much prayer, about many things.  My eyes and understanding are opening up which then comes loads of questions, and only wanting the RIGHT answers, TRUTHS.  I find I've been led to think certain ways by deceptions that have occurred to ALL of us, not just to me.

Also felt like the Lord was dealing with me about being "transparent". Definition - free from pretense or deceit: frank. Transparency means a picture viewed by light shining through it. Hmm. light shining through.

Someone once told me that I helped her more by sharing what I'd been through than trying to "help" her. You know, like giving advice.  Sharing what I've been through includes involving everyone I know and love. So how do I do that without offending someone, or revealing things about someone else that will cause others to possibly judge them? That's a dilemma that I'm working out, or through. I'm writing for anyone that wants to know what I have to say.  The others that don't care, well there's always going to be those, right?

My writing/words won't be like this excellent scholar, but I can share in my own words, can't I.  I've got a college degree although I usually forget that I do.  When it comes to being around certain people in my life, depending on their personalities, character, depends sometimes on how I respond. Right? That's certainly apparent when someone is not secure in their position in Christ, because He's able to give me the assurance that if He's with me, and He is, then I should be bold, brave, filled with love, joy, peace, self-control,... Galatians 5:22-23

Ok, where was I going with this....oh yeah.

The Bible talks in Revelations about the end times.  So much evidence that we're in those times.  The chip that hundreds of people already have in their hand with all of their personal information in order to buy/sell/go thru airports/office access/ and so much more.  Mark of the beast is what we see here.  I'm praying for all of my loved ones to be prepared.  We're not to take the chip...look it up in Revelations 13:16-17

Confessions of the Illuminati by Leo Lyon Zagami
Books on people that have come out of FreeMason, the goals of the "secret societies"

Books on people that have come out of witchcraft, sorcery like The Beautiful Side of Evil by Johanna Michcaelsen...I read this one, I believe it to be truthful.

Discernment of what's going on in today's churches...before I recommend one, I want to read it first. I do watch videos of this but I'm still going thru a process of what's true and false....

SO.  I'm going to go ahead and post this.  I feel free to go back to edit or update, but this is enough thought provoking material for now. *smile*

Surgeon and the spleen

While I was in MDA in July 2016, before I had the enlarged spleen removed, the surgeon came to my room and spoke to me.  She said that because my albumin level was so low (nutritional), that I was at risk, as well as the fact that my splenetic artery could accidentally get cut and I would bleed to death on the table.  Nutritional level must be high in order to heal properly.  If you don't eat, your body won't heal like it should. Common fact. So basically, she wasn't going to do it.  I was devastated. I called my husband on the phone and told him what she'd said, and he in turn called Dr. V. (my husband has saved my life so many times by talking to my doctor for me, and that's just in ONE way).  Dr. V. went to the surgeon and took her by the arms and said, " YOU HAVE TO DO THIS FOR HER! YOU HAVE TO REMOVE THE SPLEEN!"  (this is what was relayed to me, whether it was word for word....).  The surgeon returned to me the same day and said, "I'll send you home and schedule you for 3 weeks from now to remove the spleen, if you can bring your albumin level up.  You need to eat."

My husband called our eldest granddaughter to come to Houston, from Louisiana, to help cook and take care of me, and for moral support. (smile)  My mom had been staying with us since 2009 to help out, but when our granddaughter came, it was an added blessing.  I craved her homemade caesar salad dressing with croutons, so had her make that for me few times a day, and frozen pomegranate Ensure crushed to make a slush, and also craved beef barley soup!  My niece even ordered me a case of it off of Amazon!

During the time of returning from MDA to wait those three weeks, I had about five fans going on me all the time.  I was basically bedridden because I was in so much pain when I walked.  I didn't want phone calls, or watch TV, or have visitors.  All I wanted to do was think, and pray.  I was either going to live, or die on that operating table, and all three of our children were pregnant at the same time, and I truly wanted to see those babies.  I even told the surgeon, "I've got three babies waiting to be born, and I want to see them!"  She's like, "Nothing like pressure." (smile)

I had to go back to MDA for blood work, and other tests, before surgery.  Talk about difficult, when you're so ill, so weak, so much pain, and you're toted around in a wheel chair, and have to sit in all these waiting rooms prior to each test.  My dear husband.  What a trooper he's been. He would get stressed out when he was worried about me at times, but he was always there for me, driving me here and there for tests,...We'd spend all day when we'd go to MDA. 
There's a saying about MDA; that when you go, expect to spend the day, something like the initials stand for "Most of the day".  Anyways, there you are. 

After blood work, the results are generally ready about 1-1/2 hours later.  The PA or the doctor, depending on who you're scheduled to see that day, will then call you into the office and give you your results.  This day I was eager to get my albumin level results, because it determined whether or not I'd have the surgery to remove the spleen.  I was desperately ready to have that huge thing out of me!  The assigned doctor for me that day told me my results were still too low.  I'm thinking originally the levels were 2.5 and it needed to be 4.5 or above.  I could go back and be accurate, but this is about right.  We were not happy.  When we left the office, my husband wheeled me down to the cafeteria on the first floor. Needless to say, I was crying, so disappointed. So scared.  I wanted to live!  WELL!! My cell phone rings, and it was that same doctor!  He was apologizing all over the place: he'd read my report wrong!  My albumin level was high enough to have the surgery, which in itself was a miracle because all I'd been eating was frozen Ensure slushes, beef barley soup, and caesar salads! Now tell me; would that be enough to raise my nutritional level??  We praised God because we knew it was a miracle.  Absolutely!

As I've likely already said in a previous post, I was receiving so many cards in the mail with scriptures and encouragement and prayers.  So I took hold of the scriptures that meant the most to me and trusted God, that no matter what happened, I would be alright.  Go to heaven, or stay to see our new babies.

The surgeon also informed me that my recovery was going to be a marathon; going to take a long time to get over.  The surgery was estimated to take four hours, however, she showed up in the waiting room after only two, which my family thought meant bad news.  "No, she did great and the splenetic artery was right there in plain view on top, so there was no chance of accidentally severing it."  WOW!!!  Another answered prayer! 

My granddaughter, bless her heart, had the job of staying with me when I was in a room for next few days recovering.  I tell you what, it was some painful after the twenty-four hour pain shots wore off!  But when I awoke in the recovery room, of course, you want to continue to sleep but they have to wake you up from the anesthesia, safety first, I was surprised.  I was prepared to not live.  I really was.  I wanted to live, but I knew I was high risk. I was certainly thankful to be alive!!

Our granddaughter says I was hard on her when she stayed in the hospital with me; I didn't want to get up to walk twice a day, I was hurting all the time.  The pain meds barely worked, although they gave me what I needed.  She's able to laugh about it now, but anytime I'd be difficult, she'd get on the phone and call her mom or her Papaw and let them know.  Phew, glad that's over with.

Not having any meat on my bones caused extra pain, had to lie on pillows for months whenever we had to travel in a vehicle. I remember when I saw the nutritionist, she said, "I see you've lost even more weight after surgery, but you need to gain."  I told her, "They just removed an eight pound spleen, so yeah, I lost weight."  "Oh" as she begins to write on her little tablet. (smile)  I even had to SLEEP on pillows in the bed, or on the couch; didn't matter how I lay, it always hurt.  I'm still having back problems, but no longer have to lie on pillows. Still having back pain when I do too much, or sit too long, etc.  Need healing for that too, as do so many people I know.

Of COURSE I was scared at times. Often. I'd get my Bible out and search for scriptures that encouraged me, I'd pray. There was a great support system around me, family and friends that came to visit me before surgery, even from other states.  I was showered in love from all around. I've been so blessed.  But bottom line, I knew the only one that could help me during this time was the Lord.  It was me and Him.  This is what I've learned throughout my life, is that when it comes right down to it, I have to turn to Jesus and His Word for any answers, and the Holy Spirit comforts me and teaches me whatever I need to know at any given time, just like the Bible says. And I'm TELLLING you; it's TRUE.  He has ALWAYS been there for me, always.  I may not get a quick answer to some prayers, and some I've been waiting YEARS for...but I know without a shadow of a doubt He hears me. US.  He hears US. 

When you spend time with someone, you get to know them, right?  Same with the Lord.  When you love someone, you want to be with them, get to know them, stay with them, share with them.  Prayer is simply talking to the one you love, pouring out your heart. "The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much." James 5:16 KJV 

Learning to hear God, is the same as spending time with Him.  You learn to recognize His voice, guiding you,....But it will happen.  Whenever I'd pour out my heart and say, "please let me know you're hearing me" He always did, still does.  It was obvious, like something would happen to show me He heard me.  Would love to give an example, but not coming to me right now...But I'll let you know when I remember an example. (smile)

I have so much I want to share, to encourage you in your own walk in this life.  About so many things.  *sigh* One post at a time.

Oh, and we have three new grandchildren: two boys, and one girl!  Awesome!! These make us having eleven grandchildren now, and what blessings.